Fuck yeah! You Me At Six

‘Down but not out’ is the name of Josh Franceschi’s (from You Me At Six) clothing line, as well words that he lives by; that no matter how bad things get, you’re still alive, you still have the chance to move forward, and that’s something I’ve managed to realise and simultaneously, accept because of You Me At Six’s music.

For those of you who don’t know, I have a long history of depression, anxiety, bulimia and self harm, and I’ve tried to take my life several times. I’ve been bullied pretty much since the day I started school, and I also have to face my father’s emotional (and occasionally, physical) abuse at home. I’ve never had a stable life because my family is always moving, and I’m from England, but we’re currently living in Spain and it’s honestly the worst experience of my life. My Chemical Romance is the band that saved me from suicide, but You Me At Six is the one that’s finally made me realise that I am more than everything I’ve been labelled as, everything that I’ve had people call me. They helped me accept that I’m not going to grow up to be my father, because I know how to love people without adding conditions to it. They made me realise that I deserve so much more than I’m getting and that hurting myself at every chance I get isn’t the way to deal with my pain. They’ve helped me in so many different ways that I don’t think I could thank them even if I were lucky enough to have the chance. These were things that MCR did make me see, but they never stuck for some reason, and I always felt like I was disappointing them with every downwards step I took into my personal abyss.

I am not afraid to keep on living, and I am not afraid to walk this world alone because I know I’m not alone anymore. Music really is like a free anti-depressant but maybe it only ever works when you least expect it. These past few weeks, I was sure I was going to kill myself, because I would try each and every day, because it felt so much better to not have to face anything ever again, but I promised myself that I won’t ever hurt or try to kill myself again.

I became a fan in 2008 when Take Off Your Colours came out, and I never knew how important these five boys would become for me. Even though I’ve never been able to go to a single show of theirs or even been in the same vicinity as either one of them, they’ve touched my heart in numerous ways and made me the person I am today, right now.

So, thank you Josh, Max, Matt, Chris and Dan, for everything that you’ve done, and if you ever get to read this, know that there are probably about a million other things that I want to say but don’t know the proper way to convey, but I hope I managed to say how happy and alive your music makes me feel, so thank you.

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‘Down but not out’ is the name of Josh Franceschi’s (from You Me At Six) clothing line, as well words that he lives by; that no matter how bad things get, you’re still alive, you still have the chance to move forward, and that’s something I’ve managed to realise and simultaneously, accept because of You Me At Six’s music.

For those of you who don’t know, I have a long history of depression, anxiety, bulimia and self harm, and I’ve tried to take my life several times. I’ve been bullied pretty much since the day I started school, and I also have to face my father’s emotional (and occasionally, physical) abuse at home. I’ve never had a stable life because my family is always moving, and I’m from England, but we’re currently living in Spain and it’s honestly the worst experience of my life. My Chemical Romance is the band that saved me from suicide, but You Me At Six is the one that’s finally made me realise that I am more than everything I’ve been labelled as, everything that I’ve had people call me. They helped me accept that I’m not going to grow up to be my father, because I know how to love people without adding conditions to it. They made me realise that I deserve so much more than I’m getting and that hurting myself at every chance I get isn’t the way to deal with my pain. They’ve helped me in so many different ways that I don’t think I could thank them even if I were lucky enough to have the chance. These were things that MCR did make me see, but they never stuck for some reason, and I always felt like I was disappointing them with every downwards step I took into my personal abyss.

I am not afraid to keep on living, and I am not afraid to walk this world alone because I know I’m not alone anymore. Music really is like a free anti-depressant but maybe it only ever works when you least expect it. These past few weeks, I was sure I was going to kill myself, because I would try each and every day, because it felt so much better to not have to face anything ever again, but I promised myself that I won’t ever hurt or try to kill myself again.

I became a fan in 2008 when Take Off Your Colours came out, and I never knew how important these five boys would become for me. Even though I’ve never been able to go to a single show of theirs or even been in the same vicinity as either one of them, they’ve touched my heart in numerous ways and made me the person I am today, right now.

So, thank you Josh, Max, Matt, Chris and Dan, for everything that you’ve done, and if you ever get to read this, know that there are probably about a million other things that I want to say but don’t know the proper way to convey, but I hope I managed to say how happy and alive your music makes me feel, so thank you.